This process worked really well for me so I plan on keeping the #HabitProgress calendar with the same two criteria and choosing a word as well. In November, I decided to choose the word Love for a lot of reasons. I feel like there's a lot of terrible things that are happening in the world that could use love. In 2015, I spent a lot of time learning to love myself and have a lot more to do. I also want to spend time loving on other people. I'm interested to see where this word takes me this year. Last year took some crazy turns and I feel like connecting with a word did more for me than any resolutions ever did.
Here's where I'm looking to see the word love manifest itself in my life this year.
Physically: 2015 I spent a lot of time focusing on getting stronger, working out, etc. By the end of the year I was having some back issues though. I also spent a lot of time beating myself for not working out or not looking the way I wanted to. I want working out to be fun again — I want it to be something I do as a way to love myself not punish myself. That's not going to be easy, but I'm working to change my attitude and expectations. Maybe loving myself one week is only doing yoga. Maybe at some point it is joining a new gym with a trainer to make sure I don't get injured. Maybe it's taking a break from working out and being ok with NOT doing anything. We'll see.
Emotionally: I already know going forward that this won't be an easy year emotionally. This year will be the year that Matt and I finally close the distance on our relationship, but I'm sure we'll have to deal with several things before that happens. I've also been dealing with my idea of worth a lot recently. How do I define success and worth? For the past few years its been my job, but I'm starting to see that that is not a healthy way to live your life. Again, this one will take a changing of attitude and expectations as I try to figure out what my priorities are and how I will live them out.
Spiritually: I've done a lot of growing spiritually and this year I hope to use my faith to love on other people. I already help out with a high school youth group and I want to continue to work with them and my Bible study to spread the love around.
Mentally: As I mentioned in my physical goals — I've had issues loving myself and that makes me mentally weak. I hope to make meditation a habit and just take time away for "me time." I'm not good at setting boundaries, but I've discovered that it is so necessary. Even if that's unplugging at night so I can stop the mindless scrolling on email and social media. I need to love myself enough to set boundaries and take mental breaks.
Other things I want to work on:
- Plan a wedding!
- Take the GMAT
- Read my Bible at least 4 days a week